{"id":1618,"date":"2012-06-29T16:00:30","date_gmt":"2012-06-29T20:00:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/?p=1618"},"modified":"2012-06-29T16:06:25","modified_gmt":"2012-06-29T20:06:25","slug":"committed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/2012\/06\/29\/committed\/","title":{"rendered":"Committed"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/Typewriter_keys.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-1637\" title=\"Typewriter_keys\" src=\"http:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/Typewriter_keys.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"350\" height=\"280\" srcset=\"https:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/Typewriter_keys.jpg 350w, https:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/Typewriter_keys-300x240.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 350px) 100vw, 350px\" \/><\/a>Writing a novel isn&#8217;t an act of commitment&#8211;it&#8217;s ten thousand acts of commitment.<\/p>\n<p>A vision pops into your head and you know there&#8217;s more and it&#8217;s miraculous and brilliant, you can feel it right there, just beyond your fingertips.<\/p>\n<p>You start writing it down &#8211; and the work starts. Because somehow the words on the page (or the screen, in my case) never match the vision in your head, never fully capture it. That doesn&#8217;t matter \u00a0at first &#8211; the visions keep coming, images and vivid moods that you struggle to get down before they fade.<\/p>\n<p>Which, inevitably, they begin to\u00a0<span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">do<\/span>. That&#8217;s where the commitment comes, over and over and over. You have to get up every morning and add something to the pile of dry tinder you&#8217;ve collected, hoping to find something that&#8217;ll eventually catch fire. Every once in a while, a little something does and that sustains you through months of sticks and dry leaves, of sitting in front of that empty screen and hoping for something better than you&#8217;re getting.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/type.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-1638\" title=\"type\" src=\"http:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/type.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"331\" height=\"221\" srcset=\"https:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/type.jpg 331w, https:\/\/tedkrever.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/06\/type-300x200.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 331px) 100vw, 331px\" \/><\/a>Commitment is the day you look at three months work and think &#8216;Okay, this doesn&#8217;t work,&#8217; throwing it all out and starting over. \u00a0Commitment is when you realize with gut-churning clarity that the whole thing is a crock of shit and you&#8217;ve thrown away two years of your life &#8211; and then go back to writing it the next morning.<\/p>\n<p>And then somewhere toward the end, \u00a0you start clearing away the driftwood, everything that isn&#8217;t absolutely crucial\u00a0<span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">and<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">all kinds of little moments start to come together in ways you never anticipated; the characters suddenly aren&#8217;t wooden and stupid, they start acting and speaking for themselves and having marvelous insights that couldn&#8217;t possibly have come from you. At this point, commitment is doing whatever is necessary to keep up. Y<\/span>ou fly through that last major rewrite thrilled and terrified, eating badly and digesting worse, getting palpitations in the afternoon and not sleeping well at night and promising yourself you&#8217;ll never do this ever again &#8211; \u00a0you&#8217;ll be way more organized\u00a0<span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">next time.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>And then a vision pops into your head&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<!-- AddThis Advanced Settings generic via filter on the_content --><!-- AddThis Share Buttons generic via filter on the_content -->","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Writing a novel isn&#8217;t an act of commitment&#8211;it&#8217;s ten thousand acts of commitment. A vision pops into your head and you know there&#8217;s more and it&#8217;s miraculous and brilliant, you can feel it right there, just beyond your fingertips. 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